From: Gyit Tu
EMail: gyit_tu@yahoo.com
Have u ever felt so complete one minute & lost the next?
The high-flyer company I work for suddenly doesnt seem so high. I cant convince my 60+ yrs old, highly determined, energetic father that he is no longer in his 40s but in 60s and should start thinking abt going to temples only, instead of thinking abt setting up a new business. I cant convince my parents that I am no longer 16 but obtained the permission to vote since a yr ago. I realise, trying to make my conservative parents happy by complying with their rules, is making my life indeed miserable at times. I hav no close friends coz all my old classmates cant seem to reach the same level of maturity as mine or cant seem to hav same ideas. Though i've found the right partner, i hate still having to dial 02 (ppl from SG will know the code) in front of his phone number. I dont want to ask him to give up his great job to move to a place near me. But since the day he whispered those 3 little words, he's been trying. So i keep waiting too. (the thing I hate most in life is to wait. I never like anyone who is late for appointment. But irony is, for my happiness in life, I end up waiting willingly.)I wish i've won lottery so that my parents dont hav to work to save back the money they used up on my education instead of on their retirement. But then, i havnt bought any lottery ticket.
That's y i felt lost or should I really? Just then, I read a story by NayMyo. He wrote a real-life account of how one young poor kid ended up dead during his struggle for food. I saw pictures of death in newspaper. I heard abt how some old folk face hostility from their younger collegues @ work. I thought of some couples who hav to be separated for long time coz the husband has to work overseas to earn money for family back home.
I M still alive & kicking. @ work, ppl dote on me as being the youngest. I hav an intereating job with rather good (i m not so greedy) salary. I still can call "him" whenever I want to & I dont hav to lift a finger for a home-cooked delicious meals. I still hav a life but not as wild as I want it to be.
Well, the truth is, my life isnt complete. Probably our lives never would be. There will always be something missing. But it's up to us how to accept that. I used to hear the saying "lu` a loe, nat ma lite naing". Maybe I am wanting too much in life. I should be content. So i've decided to be like that.
But wat abt the 5Cs (career, car, condo, cash, {more} credit cards) & other "misc" things I've longed for? Oh i am too young to give them up. I will still keep on walking the same path like any other person to get them. The difference for me now is, I wont lose sleep over those again.
Hope u will do the same too. The sun will be much brighter for ur days then.